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When I was scared to go to sleep last night, I wrote you an Acrostic Poem. ENJOY!
Amazingly Gorgeous
Supportive of Mabel
Heroic
Loving
Encouraging
Youthful (It was 3am, and I couldn’t think of an adjective starting with Y LOL)
Talented
Humble
Elegant
When I was scared to go to sleep last night, I wrote you an Acrostic Poem. ENJOY!
Amazingly Gorgeous
Supportive of Mabel
Heroic
Loving
Encouraging
Youthful (It was 3am, and I couldn’t think of an adjective starting with Y LOL)
Talented
Humble
Elegant
When I was scared to go to sleep last night, I wrote you an Acrostic Poem. ENJOY!
Amazingly Gorgeous
Supportive of Mabel
Heroic
Loving
Encouraging
Youthful (It was 3am, and I couldn’t think of an adjective starting with Y LOL)
Talented
Humble
Elegant
When I was scared to go to sleep last night, I wrote you an Acrostic Poem. ENJOY!
Amazingly Gorgeous
Supportive of Mabel
Heroic
Loving
Encouraging
Youthful (It was 3am, and I couldn’t think of an adjective starting with Y LOL)
Talented
Humble
Elegant
My Jelly Bean,
Take a deep breath. I know that being at home by yourself will provide a catalyst of a million thoughts that will plague your mind. I do not know the details of this situation, but from what I can see, it looks like you have been really hurt by friends who have excluded you. And you considered these friends to be family, right?
I know what it feels like to be excluded. I know what it feels like to be losing people that you care about. You are most definitely not being immature because you are entitled to these feelings. Please, Please don’t bottle anything up. You need someone to lift that weight off your shoulders. I am more than willing to be that shoulder that you need. So would Gemma, so would Ashley. You have many many friends around you that are worried and care about you so much.
Please remember that. Remember that you have a mass of people that do want to hear your story. Would it help talking it out with these friends of yours?
Measure how much you hurt. If you’re hurting a lot then I can assure you that these friends mean a lot to you. It’s the closest people to you, that hurt you the most. BUT - if they have been continuing to hurt you, so much, for such a long time, and this keeps happening, they don’t deserve a beautiful friend like you. Only you will know, in your own heart, whether giving them another chance will be worth it.
I don’t want to see you hurt. I cannot provide the cure to the problem, but I can provide the medicine, the medicine of a true friend to soothe it. Just reach out.
I love you, you don’t deserve any of this.
Love, M
My Jelly Bean,
Take a deep breath. I know that being at home by yourself will provide a catalyst of a million thoughts that will plague your mind. I do not know the details of this situation, but from what I can see, it looks like you have been really hurt by friends who have excluded you. And you considered these friends to be family, right?
I know what it feels like to be excluded. I know what it feels like to be losing people that you care about. You are most definitely not being immature because you are entitled to these feelings. Please, Please don’t bottle anything up. You need someone to lift that weight off your shoulders. I am more than willing to be that shoulder that you need. So would Gemma, so would Ashley. You have many many friends around you that are worried and care about you so much.
Please remember that. Remember that you have a mass of people that do want to hear your story. Would it help talking it out with these friends of yours?
Measure how much you hurt. If you’re hurting a lot then I can assure you that these friends mean a lot to you. It’s the closest people to you, that hurt you the most. BUT - if they have been continuing to hurt you, so much, for such a long time, and this keeps happening, they don’t deserve a beautiful friend like you. Only you will know, in your own heart, whether giving them another chance will be worth it.
I don’t want to see you hurt. I cannot provide the cure to the problem, but I can provide the medicine, the medicine of a true friend to soothe it. Just reach out.
I love you, you don’t deserve any of this.
Love, M
HAPPY. BECAUSE QUITE POSSIBLY GETTING TO SEE HEBE IN CONCERT. AHHH LIKE. YOU PROBABLY DON’T KNOW HER. BUT SHE’S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SINGERS. EVER. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. This is my happy for today. Though not sure will be able to go seeing tickets cost a beech. But. Here’s hoping! Hello Singapore & Malaysia, 25 Days To Go! Eep!
- Playing the “Movie” game, where you have to give clues so people can guess the title of the movie -
Eg. “The ‘Awesome’ ‘One less than five’” = The Fantastic Four
Mabel: Okay Okay… Ooh! Okay… “The ‘By yourself’ ‘Made out of Calcium”“
Friend(s): Uh…
- Silence -
Friend: Are you sure you’ve got it right?
Mabel: Yeah.. Like THINK. What word goes with by yourself…. and what’s made out of Calcium?
Friend: ….
Friend: Don’t you mean “The Lovely Bones?”
Mabel: What?! Isn’t It “The Lonely Bones?” Oh shit it isn’t
*Mabel Red Face*
Mabel: THATS THE SAME MISTAKE I MADE IN YR10 SOCIAL STUDIES AHHH
Friend(s): LOL FAIL.
i am going away soon. in about three weeks. i’m excited. my cousins don’t know, well atleast i don’t think they do. but i’m scared. i’m scared that my heart is going to give me a reason to stay.
history is repeating itself & I can’t seem to stop thinking about you. which sucks because we don’t exactly talk anymore, like we use to every single day.
need new guys in my life because i keep digging up the ghosts of my past.
lalalalala, mission bay tomorrow with my bestie from 5 years ago. I hope it’s not going to be awkward. what to say? my life isn’t exactly exciting.
Okay so I most definitely woke up on the wrong side of my bed today.
I was suppose to get skin treatment today, but dad decided that because he was installing sky we’d postpone my skin treatment til next month. He actually got really pissed off at me this morning ugh. I usually pay for myself. I used my money earned from this ASB bursary to pay for skincare products for my skin, so I’m pretty much broke. I don’t mean to sound like an ungrateful bitch but my skin gets to me so much. One moment, it looks like it’s going to get better. Then the next it’s like “HAHAHA, SORRY MABEL, JK”
I just want to be considered pretty. And not just by my friends. By boys too.
Fuck. I can’t believe that comments passed seven years ago STILL affect me. But that’s the first thoughts about me a boy ever gave. F-U-G-L-Y, U-G-L-Y B-I-T-C-H. I wasn’t a bitch. The other asshole put that in because I got angry at him for teasing me. Hahaha srsly?
Holy shit. Why the hell did I ever want to go back to the Int days so much? Everyone thought I was a loser & probably secretly thought I was fcking ugly. I think I only got through because I was best friends with pretty much, the most beautiful girl in our class. And she protected me a lot. And I mean ALOT. She wouldn’t let anyone hurt me. Thank God for her.
And then I go ahead an get this sicko letter from this person, who was most likely making fun of me. Bringing back up all of these insecurities. I then remembered at the start of this year, when this boy I met at Uni and my friend were talking about me and said “She’s sexy” and they both LOLOLOLed straight after. FU.
Omg I feel so shit. So so shit. I thought that I was over all of this shit. All of the being made fun of.
I think being rejected 18 years has also killed esteem. Guys don’t date a girl, unless they find her attractive, or are attracted by her. So noone finds me attractive. HAHAHAHAHA.
I need to take my own advice. I can’t bring up shit from the past.
Whatev. I’m going back to bed and hoping I’ll wake up happy like I usually do.
